Into a thousand lights of sun

These are snapshots of my mind.

it’s like forgetting the words to your favorite song, you can’t believe it, you were always singing along

—eet-Regina Spektor

my stupid mouth

Relationships are misleading. Think about it. With whom did you establish your first relationship?

For me, it was my mother. I was breast fed as a baby. I liked to think of it as from-the-womb-to-the-nip type of situation. Yes, it counts as a relationship. I’m assuming she learned my ‘hungry cries,’ ‘wet cries’ and ‘attention cries,’ because I like to think I turned out pretty ok, and kids whose care takers did not learn these essential cries are likely traumatized or dead, who knows.  

Anyhow, after learning how to speak, presumably I told her when I was hungry and/or what I wanted. My mother, being an apt individual quickly learned that I got hungry around three times at day and that I should be fed then, otherwise there may have been adverse side effects, like severe malnutrition or osteoporosis. I don’t know, i’m not an adverse-side-effects-connoisseur.

Regardless, the woman learned to feed me when I needed to be fed. 

My point is that no one learns what you need or when you need it. You gotta precisely or cleverly disguise what it is that you want, if you want to get it.

and so i have come to the dreadful conclusion that relationships are misleading. 

-Midnight Rant

Part of me longs for the fabled trembling knees, heart-on-my-mouth, butterflies-in-my-belly moments

i love her steez

i love her steez

hear my roar

hear my roar

mmm

mmm